What a feeling ,,

what a feeling i am getting . I too can't understand I am feeling like to draw my emotions so today thinking to buy a drawing book . Nothing great to do today will study and will do painting and blogging will watch some movies too . Today having only one tuition so i am free today technically. Little repairing in bike as my bike got its usual speed back . Yesterday I was pleased by my bikes usual speed was enjoying driving i should say . Hope will meet my Angel today .

I am feeling so crazy these days

Its the effect of her or some sun rays

My mind works for her and heart beats for her

She is driving me so crazy and making my vision clear

I never thought so hard for something

But to get her now I will do anything

I wanna get succeed to make her feel good

I want to impress her as she is my sandal wood

My eyes sticks on her when i see her

Watching her smile and look at me is such a blower

She is making me write and think about her every day

I wanna she her daily its the only Pray

I could spend my whole life watching her smile

I can't even imagine her sad for a while

Working hard to make her like me forever

I too wanna top exam and wanna become clever

I am unable to wash her image

she is still in mind and making it damage

Her damage is really important to me as it is motivating

Now working hard as now i want to achieve something .... <3

Energetic day

Today was awesome energetic i should say technically . I planned a birthday for her in my home She too helped me for surprise party of her which i arranged . which was no longer a surprise bought her some gifts she said she will take on her birthday . I gave her two days before . I was excited to give her party for her birthday means i wanted to celebrate her birthday as soon as possible because i hate waiting . we took lots of photographs including the one in which she was completely covered with cake . Given photos for washing tomorrow probably i will be getting i feel.

Tuition too was energetic yo yo why was i enjoying studying i too was not knowing the actual reason ....

Now I got some fucking power from no where . So now i will be able to concentrate on studies more ....... yeah had to achieve something in this years exam . I damn want to top these exams its my high expectation . I wanna be satisfied at the end that i gave my 100 % in right direction .......

Books are calling now time to study ....... ;)

Birthday Blast

Today had a blast feeling like now finally i became an adult . First half was More awesome as on my birthday i Was With Her . You Wanna know for how much hour ? Complete Two hour best two hour with her till now . I was feeling like to not leave her to her home . She came home today we celebrated my birthday My first half was owed by her . She Bought her new dress Which She showed me after wearing it she was looking super nova sexy man . My mouth was wide open that the girl i love is so sexy and beautiful . I had pleasure of her today her presence with me was so awesome . When we were in ride i was feeling like to never stop that bike . She Is my baby my angel my wife my life my best friend she is everything to me . i know one thing clearly i love my sweet heart as crazy as hell i can't even think my life without her . Today mom doubted me that any girl was in home . now its not safe to bring shreya home thinking to celebrate her birthday Which is On !2 th of this month Some where Else . Everyone in colony watches me with Red Eye now so if any one will say anything to mom Then I am Gone . Everyone in colony knows that i bring some girl with me and take her to my home . Even my neighbors too have watched me couple of times . Now me and Shriti will enjoy more as we will be going on more dates as we can't go to my house frequently . Love her the most and love her like Crazy I am Mad For her she is my addiction ......... never wanna leave her ........<3

Second half of the day i was with friends enjoyed there too we all danced with our shirt off . We did loads of fun it was literally awesome . I can say best party i ever gone .

Today Was one of the best day of my life thanks to 4 peoples for that Friends , shreya , Dad , God....

From tomorrow real studies now time to do something real ....

My Mind Is been Bewitched

Today was nice day . I was feeling very nice when she was around me . I was enjoying every sec with her . Every time i kiss her the same feeling comes to me , the feeling which came to me on our first kiss . i want the clock to stop when she is with me . But what to do clock is not under my control . every time i see her i love her more means after seeing and meeting her my love increases for her . I am trying to be a good person only because of her . Today she gave me some gifts they were so sweet and awesome i can't say . The gifts she gave me because i have birthday tomorrow . Tomorrow finally i will be turned to an adult . yeah but i am not that excited don't know why . I now a days love to prove everyone wrong by saying " fuck you asshole you keep your thinking and opinion with you my love was , is and will be true for shreya". No one agrees that i am saying truth how could they believe me as i was the biggest flirt who had lots of girls before . But they have to agree as i am completely changed . I even never watch any girl with bad eye . until her level is above "Katrina Kaif" .

I think she has done magic over me and all my days and nights goes over thinking her . I have only she who understands me and tolerate me . i never wanna live without her .

Tomorrow is my birthday will celebrate in R2 great Pub of Bhilai ........

Hope will meet her too tomorrow .......

I love you shreya

I am nothing without her and i don't want to be anything without her . why is so that i love her in any situation . i love to make her mad and crazy when she get angry i love her more so sweet and cute she sounds . i love to play with her . she is my angel i don't wanna know what would i be without her . Because i am damn happy and in love with her in Present . I love to bully her . and her logics are always awesome . i love to love her and i love to do everything with her . i don't know why other ass holes cheated her but i could say frankly i am not among that ass holes . i have married with her soul and me and my everything belongs to her . Writing about her in this blog only and her call just came and she was saying that i hate writing about her and in yesterdays blog i didn't mentioned her . She is my Princess My lovely someone special . I never ever wanna live without her ......

"you made me laughed when i was sad

you made me realize why i deserver to be here

i met you and i found you as my life i am glad

your name i never write any were because it may get teer

I may hate anyone but you the only one i love

I fight with you not from heart just its fake

My life will be nothing without you it will be just sore

I am your coconut and you are my cake

You say you love me more and i say I love u More

Its nothing like that make that thing clear

we both love each other the same No one loves more

everything you say make me feel good you better get that dear

Everything is dark for me nothing is clear

i only have you i never wanna lose you

we will break up you and i both have fear

But its not like that love is powerful and I love You

Forget the past and live in present

Because your smile is precious and a medicine for my pain

Many would have left you and made you fool i will never leave you you better get lessened

we will live together forever so get that thing in brain

My heart is small and is Soft

you live in that silly heart so play it nice

i don't have anything special for me you are a lot

Nothing i want after winning i just want you in my whole life as great Price "

text missing ........... <3

This world is so high

I can't fly why is it so difficult

Is it any phobia i have or the world is really so high

i wanna fly but me my self has made an assault

Everyone is running so Fast like they have a Race

We have many peoples who give up here

why don't we understand that world is race and we have to face

We like it Or hate we have to live here only as there is no where

who loves to lose in this race of fly

just we don't know that when to run and when to stop

some of us know how to run and some of us only sit and cry

we never run for enjoyment we run for gaining top

We love to be happy and hate to get sad

why don't we think same is the case is with everyone

In our race to get happy we get blind and hurt many and make them sad

we should win the race in the manner which could not affect anyone

Race is just a race it can't give you satisfaction for long time

the thing which will pay is the happiness of all

we are so blind in the race that we forget the right to decide

every time running fast can't make you winner the thing which decides is only and only time .

Hard Work is important

Day can't be yours completely and i like twist and turns because it make me tense and in tension i think a lot and thus i love thinking . It was fun in coaching today made two new friends there Shailesh and Saswat . I was getting what sir was explaining today . i only need practice which i am not doing why is that oops oops i too don't know . just had to give labor . My labor will help me only in future so why i don't work hard for myself . Working hard for myself would not be easy task but i have to bring that in habit than only i will be able to survive in this big big competitive world . Nothing is easy even siting doing nothing too is a hard work . after getting fail i realized that . It was too tough for me to sit idol for a whole year but i finally did it .... and achieved what i basically should deserve for that hard work . A good thing i learned in Art of living that You should give your 100 % but in right direction . Past year i knew i need to give 100% but i didn't knew that in which direction i should give my 100 % . Nothing would be able to make me feel good and satisfied after 30 years of my age only and only "one thinking may satisfy my soul that whole my life i gave my 100 % now i am happy what i got in return" . Every sec which i am spoiling now in present will make me cry in future but what to do i am not trying to do time management i am just spoiling it . i will be left with my whole life for enjoyment if i will struggle in this few years but when i will get greedy and will enjoy in present then i have to struggle in future ... Enjoying is not bad but There are more many things much important than enjoyments ..

here too i am unable to express my entire emotions don't know why . Every one lie for some reasons but they should tell the truth after words but they not say a word . Difficult world I am too a part of it . Have to open my eyes soon or else i am going to kick my own ass ......