Condition can't be favorable always but sometimes condition too is in favor but you have to do one thing to get your desire condition , just wait and take everything which comes . Had a nice day today bigger thanks to akshu we went to temple , Me able to wash up my sin's because of her deed . And feeling better after patch up with shreya I don't know whats going on but feel good when i talk to her . She apologized again for her past and I too said sorry for slapping her , Now we both don't have a guilt . Its nothing like that great things happen to great peoples only , sometimes people like me too can rock but you have to wait every time , its fine in many way . I love the ups and downs in this life . Love to talk to akshu she is magician why i am saying this i too don't know she have answer for every question of mine she could compete me in arguing too i know she will loose but she can compete .. :p ..

Love existed or not its tough question always I am not interested in answer even though i believe in loving every one and enjoying its good really . Because how can you say which is last day of yours . Had good class at coaching madam taught to my level i was not even getting bored . I have stopped Watching sristy as she too has done the same .

Now everyday I wake up and Just let things happen all around me and watch still its really good feeling sometimes I get happiness and other time sadness , I get sad very less because nothing affects me really . I just want one thing from this life that is satisfaction and satisfaction nothing more great .......

Everyday you don't know what to do

Sometimes day is good sometimes blue

You can cry a loud some day or sometimes let the things go

You can't become a master as you have no clue

Its easy to win every time in any field

But It takes guts to Loose

Believe in doing than you will get what you yield

Sometimes I feel Just run to a sea in some cruise

I can't live without shreya really , so i got her back means patch up again and this time with the promise that no break up again . and guilt factor is too removed from heart as she got treatment , don't worry i didn't kissed anyone in front of her . On her force i slapped her i was feeling bad for time being but she got punishment and i got her back I love her really i don't think so no one else could understand me better , yeah finally I got my true love its my self realization . Convinced Rishabh that I was out of mind and sad so said him sorry got his friendship too back askshu is still angry feeling little bad . But at the end all is well when ends well . hope every thing goes well as who likes to be sad .

M.r Fucker

I know whatever i think has many possibility's , and the possibility's i think would never happen with me . I too don't know why I think never happens according to what i had thought , Its so foolish of me I asked akshu to favor me in condition by kissing me in front of shreya her message just came " fuck off Mr. Abhilash Agrawal You are the biggest bastard I have ever seen " . I too just messaged sorry now don't know what will happen , I think today shreya has to make a choice lets see what choice will she make of leaving me or fulfilling the condition I made i know I am an ass and i accept it , Tuition time had to go tuition now will reach home back till 8.pm ... her reply was not coming so messaged akshu that bye forever will never ever message her again messed up with Rishabh too now me M.r Fucker is alone again with no one around .

Why is so

Just waking up from a noon sleep , sleeping really helps to forget . Had made a condition in front of Shreya that if she wanna continue then she has to arrange an girl and i will be kissing that girl in front of her or she could leave me easily , The two choices i gave her was really harsh i know but I had no choice left as I could not leave her or If I may live with her I don't wanna live with guilt that i am living with girl who was physical with other guys too , I just wanna make her feel the pain in which I am burning right now . I know it would be impossible for me to arrange a girl for my self and burn shreya in front of her, so I have given this job of searching any girl to shreya only . And Have told shreya that I will reply her after she will be making a choice either leaving me or fulfilling the condition .

I know I am not good man I am an bustard

But what to do I have no control over me

I know one day I have to pay for all this debt and i'l be sad

I don't know what i should do right now even i can't see

This world is so harsh I don't love to live

I am burning and burning with my all heart burn

How I have made this all situation in my fucking life

I just want everything new even include the so high sun

Why is everything is not so simple to understand

Everything is tough and its like solving puzzle

I am just searching my satisfaction in a big sand

I just wanna fly and fly freely just like a bubble

Boom finally got break up with shreya , I would have accepted her if she would have told me in beginning that she had so many X's and she was physical with them . But she disclosed the secret day before yesterday so it was unjust of her and knowing she is not doing good activity she added more to the list of her good activity's like donating her number , chatting with lots of guys , showing off and many things . I finally got break up i am happy with it I don't want much , feeling really bad but what to do you have to be sad sometimes to get happiness its the rule . And some rules related to the reflection of life too stands means the way you do is the way you get . I feel I have done things right to my extent so I am satisfied with it . May get any new g.f sooner or later I don' t care really now I don't fear opening books . When you are sad you don't fear anything so Being sad has helped me lot in my studies I am able to concentrate now its good I feel .

Yeah yeah I was not at my best today then too many good things happened today , its never like that only a best person can get everything I met akshu (akanksha) it was great , gone to her house too she is so fun loving and interesting i can't say . Her mom is great and she too I liked that very much that they had no hard and fast rules . I was in great speed in my bike while coming back from tuition to akshu whole city knew that something was moving . I tried to make a stunning entry by skiting my tire I did it so well but fuck sand it came in my path and my role went under ground it was like ... over all good day special thanks to akshu for making it great .. Said many things to shreya and told her too saying me sorry won't make a change she should feel by her self because her activity's won't be harming me it will be harming her only . I don't give a shit to these all love stuffs . I just wanna spend life as it going love everyone and everyone may love you simple logic . Make ten g.f's make them feel special and you too feel special with them . Who said loving is wrong loving is good and you don't have to only love one person you can love many . Virtue of true love is impossible to achieve so me too not trying anything just accepting as as accepting things really helps ...

Boom finally got break up with shreya , I would have accepted her if she would have told me in beginning that she had so many X's and she was physical with them . But she disclosed the secret day before yesterday so it was unjust of her and knowing she is not doing good activity she added more to the list of her good activity's like donating her number , chatting with lots of guys , showing off and many things . I finally got break up i am happy with it I don't want much , feeling really bad but what to do you have to be sad sometimes to get happiness its the rule . And some rules related to the reflection of life too stands means the way you do is the way you get . I feel I have done things right to my extent so I am satisfied with it . May get any new g.f sooner or later I don' t care really now I don't fear opening books . When you are sad you don't fear anything so Being sad has helped me lot in my studies I am able to concentrate now its good I feel .