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Started Part two Which Has damn Twist So do wait and hope This blog gets converted to an valuable novel .. :D

Whats going on . what is really happening , am I gone mad or what . Anything would have happened I don't care . I only know that I can be in love with one girl and by the heart and she is Shreya only . I can just be friends or just talk for fun with another girls . But my heart is stolen by that witch only its so true but I am unable to convince anyone . I am watching her behaving unusual  these days . What happened to her she may know better . I think she is tired to tolerate me and she wants me to understand her and make her feel better . But what I am doing in return is a shit I feel . I can just cry aloud and say I Love you shreya for almost Thousand times or more than that . All characters except shreya and few friends are falling from my list . The thing which is a main issue I feel in my mind is to be true to everyone including myself with ability of acceptance too and Wanna be serious for my future as I wanna get what I have made in my mind . I don't want to die without giving my 100 percent which i can give to my dreams . 

The day is a day which is sometimes shining and sometimes blue . You don't have any clue that what's gonna happen for next . The thing just get happen you can't do anything more than thinking that what happened in a instant now . Its so confusing why we think about others as its not going to help us as that person has no high intensity for you they behave normal but we get intense for them with no issue so confusing. Sometimes we think of no use just useless , we just have a habit to predict that I have done this now what will happen for next sort of . There should be peace in mind that you are in right path doing good deeds how anything wrong would happen to you . If in condition it happens you would have satisfaction that you always did right this is not because of your fault .

So strange feelings gets heavy over you sometimes

This feelings doesn't have an issue so we get sad

We by our self let the the feeling get heavy over us every times

You are so much intense for some feelings you think so hard

But they don't feel the same and be normal

They are so much in easy mode and so bright

We go mad and sad due to them and so critical

Try to be pure with truth then you are satisfied in height

I had good sad day today , as I was so much down and depressed and my friends made it a brighter and a new day for me . I made two new friends Shalabh and Pratha . Shalabh is a rock-star and Pratha is magician the noon was saved by Pratha as she tried a level to ease me by showing her great presence in Facebook . And our Rock Star Shalabh gave me some tips about life how the things go and how the world is ! in real sense . He scored 89 percent in board but then too he is searching for a good college . One side he stands and one side I and after watching him . I see myself with no future , no college and no job in hand as I am not that rich that I should take no tension . This day is owed by both of them hence . And no story these days of akshu and anushri(anshu) and other girls except shreya met shreya today it was normal meeting and its more than usual . A message blinked of akshu as i messaged her first when I was mentally unstable her reply came but late when I was going for sleep . She replied as she felt pity for me she said sorry in return as she is completely invisible these days . I told her that " its natural its nature its fine i didn't mind and why you felt sorry you should not feel " .

She send sad smiley in return I was like in don't know situation again running alone with my problems and irritations . Its fine I felt now the run is for money , career and fame and some satisfaction with that . Trying to fix time table hope I don't get fail again in doing that . I should sleep for 6 hour only as i searched in Google ,Will try to follow and will try to be fresh and real so soon with some truthfulness .

School is filled with same kind of People like me no differentiation . They do loads of fun and disturbance with a pinch of study . Its like fine with me , but just I am unable to do that self study its getting tough for me . Every time i sit for studying my mind starts flowing with wind where I too don't know . Its not the positive sign I know but what else I could do better than doing nothing . I am getting so much tired and feel sleepy as I do loads of hard work in doing nothing.

Today Is new day in school expecting it to be good from heart lets see now . The story from the love side is that I am again getting emotionless and I don't get affected by love or hate so its helping me to get neutral from all direction . Yesterday night I was feeling like crying don't know why but tears where not coming out,then after that I realized that all my emotions got burned so How can I laugh or cry in true sense ......