Today had really bad day i am literally tired i feel there is no one who could understand me and make me feel better . Today had an accident nothing happened to me but bikes mirror got fucked . I am just hating these things so much irritation and frustration is filled in me . I just wanna hug anyone and cry aloud and wanna say I am not feeling well please help and recover me from pain , I am hating these life please make me love this life . Today had a hard talk with anshu she have heart but i can't see she is not of my level means i am below her level , I want anyone to poke me all time and understand what i feel and would share my emotion . I am just not getting it , today was holiday in tuition so didn't met sristy . I just want some love that would come true from heart I just want that someone loves me because of my badness means bad point not because of good point . It would be funny to say that i have good points but then too . all my emotions are being fucked really harshly . i feel like doing nothing . Suffocation is resulting to irritation due to irritation I am disturbing many peoples they just don't wanna here my bullshit but then too i say blah blah blah . Today shared some thoughts with my friend rishabh and told him about some family problem also discussed the ideal qualification i need in my g.f felt really really better after sharing , so many secrets he knows of mine but he never leaks he tolerate my madness and he is more than a brother and friend to me how much i may fight with him , i will be having same emotion for him he is my buddy . I am really just not getting that what is happening all around what i am feeling why am i sad . i am thinking hardly to concentrate in study field because it is only useful field i feel .

Today i fucked my bike feeling little bad I am little sad and unable to share emotion and wanna get satisfaction . Satisfaction is a total of lust , enjoyment , sharing , laughing , crying, dancing , singing and many more ..

I am truly in a search of what i want really ... :/