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why it is so difficult to hear that i have fucked one year of mine . I am unable to digest the truth.Today dad was saying that he feel ashame that after being in the place which is a education hub i wasted one year of mine . Anyone will say I am fool I will digest but when dad says anything it hurts really . Its not that I am not feeling guilt that i have fucked my year . I just wanna forget everything and want to start everything fresh . Yesterday i studied at night today too i Will be studying . Today i didn't get a shit in coaching everything was going so above me even if i would be double of my height i wouldn't be able to catch what that fucker was teaching . I will do chemistry today and will do little drawing too .

Coming to my favorite topic "she" it was fun with her she came home we did Loads of fun including sex . Today we decided that we will reduce or will restrict our meeting at my home . Today we some how escape from our house without any question . I am damn confident if we will do our meeting in my ho0me frequently someone will raise question against us and I don't want that . Tomorrow is birthday of Her . I would not be able to wake for long duration to wish her so i will wish her in Facebook in Advance only before 3 hour or something like that . I hope I will be the first to wish her ...

Days are so complicated i want it simple

Why i Feel sad always its typical

My heart never feels ease isn't that horrible

I feel like crying but i can't its critical

I wanna run fast and laugh aloud

The only the I want is little happiness

In the way to ease my pain i see only cloud

The only thing i wanna do is craziness

What I need to get satisfied

Will I be able to achieve my goal in future

My hear is just feeling Heavy as it is blasted

Mind never works for me as I am no Creature

The search of me is still on isn't that crazy

Hope One day I will stop lying with myself

The only thing I need Is Ease of pain but what to do I am lazy

Its difficult but not impossible everything will change by me itself