Oops i fell in love

oh damn i met "shreya" today she was looking as beautiful she looks every time but today ...... furrrrr furrrr she made me mad about her i can't even think my life without her now ..... finally guys i fell in love with "shreya" . i was in love with her from starting but i was lying to my self that i don't love her that much . today i was getting worried for her reason was nothing only i wanted her forever and ever and i care about her i realized that too . first time i am taking risk to fall in true love hope this time i don't get fail in love . she is more likely trying to understand me these two days in row today and yesterday has changed me completely. i love her i love her i can say almost 1000 times any where hope she lives with me forever as i can't leave without her . Sometimes i go angry and i forget that i love her deep inside my heart she is now a days my new and solid reason for existence is she and i love her like hell i too don't know why ....

the only thing i know is i love her and i will be loving her till my last breath ..... <3

Uma oh Uma

yesterday i had chat with this girl Uma she is so innocent she is doing fourth year in some college yesterday she was tensed as she was saying that she had fight with her dad that night asked her why so she was saying that her dad was not allowing her for further studies . i the sarcasm king started again don't worry dear you can do further studies after your marriage too . so pity of her she changing the topic started no i don't have worry about marriage i am just too tensed about studies . Main reason i got from her by my thinking was that she was going to marry soon and all my dreams of dating her would be trashed or spoiled or would be hammered with a biggest hammer ever made in this universe . today is exam of her she was saying yesterday lets see and wait for her message what reply will come . i never ever had met her i just got her number and made her friend via cell she is my message friend i could say technically . she is sort of sweet after talking to her for long long hours i realized . a funny thing she told me that she was never been in a relationship how could i agree a 24 years girl have never been in a relationship then i added to her that she has controlled 10 years so 1 year more she can tolerate . By saying "control"i was stressing on some **** things like kissing fucking and getting laid or being in a relationship and crying in pain . If she had never been in a relationship very good for her but as she never tasted the taste of love i feel poor for her .. :P

hoping that she could not forget me after marriage if she will forget me my days and nights will go more boring ...

happiness lies no where

opening my eyes after a unfulfilled sleep . As usual i lost in betting again yesterday it was 4 th time in a row now . i told the person with whom i was betting that this was my last betting . after getting fail in your class and wasting your complete one year you don't feel good . today again i will be left with nothing as i have nothing great to do . art of living classes too got completed have nothing great to do other than blogging . my bikes rim has got some problem thinking to make it work today will do some adventure as got nothing great to do will say Risabh to come with me he is one of my best friend or you can say only best friend others are like not that good . we were thinking to search for repairing in our city Durg only but i think we may need to go to some other city as work may not be possible here hope Risabh agrees to come with me . fucking no great schedule i am completely free these days roaming like dogs and sleeping sleeping sleeping. Shriti was saying that she will meet me tomorrow for 1 hour . you can't think how big time i will spend with her as we have not spent more than half an hour with each other in our entire relationship . hope tomorrow comes soon and everything goes soothing with no breakers because i actually hate breakers . just message Rohan and asked him that will he go to other city with me for my work their after my work we can go to mall also . now waiting for his positive reply . Rohan is also a friend of mine an complete all rounder this mother fucker is good in almost every shit . now will watch some movies and try to pass my time ......

Mind Unstable

i love her i love her why is so i was sad that day thats why i was thinking i am not in true love but i am fucking human being who diverts his mind now i am saying i can't live without her she is meaning to my worthless life . when i am in calm mind i realize that i truly love her in anger a person can say anything but now today date 24/4/11 at 9.26 pm says that i can't live without "shreya" she is my world . Proud to love her sometimes .....today was the last day of art of living it was awesome i had written on the paper which they gave us that what u wanted to achieve from here did u got that . i had written " hope i would be able to bring change in me " and one day i will too be a good person ..... today betting on cochi an they did poor first inning hope they do better in second inning ... now will watch match after that an unstable and irritated uncomfortable sleep .......

Is this what we call love

i meet my g.f once in a week or once in a month for half an hour maximum and that too on my bed is this the thing which couple do i didn't gone on date with her since we came in a relationship never took dinner or lunch with her . the source of our connection for us is cell only and that too we not call each other frequently we just chat through messages . i never felt pleased after talking to her neither her saying gave me any ease . In love or in relationship both partners spends loads of time and in my case . i am just dick face or what she says i never understands her situation i am too fucking a common man no . who will understand my situation then .

is this what we call love ....

Nothing great to do now . At 4 pm its a art of living class i have 3 hours free to do nothing just playing with my keyboard and trying to write something logical . its too tough to open those big big books i can't even dare to touch i am following the funda that " don't put your hand in the work which you can't do " . I think some drugs has been stuffed in my books as i open them my head starts paining why the fuck it happens to me only i don't know . i want to study but i don't want to open my books as drugs are stuffed in it and my head starts paining after doing that dare devil act . hope one day i will be able to tackle this big big problem . i have such great dreams that if anyone will hear they will say one day u will get richer then bill gates and Microsoft will be yours . Such a great plan i have means plans like which could be never achieved by me in Hindi we say it " saala khayali pulao pakka rha hae behn****" . its not like that i am not working hard it just i am not working in right direction and hence i am not giving my fucking 100 percent .

what the hack

yesterday i told everything about me and shreya except that sex related thing to dad finally fucking i realized that my fucking love was true for that silly girl i damn can't leave without her . Oh Sorry I didn't told you about shriti she is my one and only g.f she is in 11 th and me too in 11 th class everything going so fast that what to say . Everyone is blind but i am blind from all sides from brain from heart from eye . this is my second year in class 11th its too shame sometimes that you got fail in some class . and when if your mother taunt you everyday that you are failure and you got fail it hurts really . I am sort of loner now a days as i have everything but nothing mine my g.f is only able to satisfy my sexual desire nothing else great she does but as she was their with me in my bad times thats why i love her . the only reason for loving her is that she never leaves me and could tolerate me easily . Nothing going right as i feel i am siting in home as i am unemployed . my fucking new school will start in June as i have been thrown out from my old school after scoring such good marks in my academics . i am just pissed of my parents they look me like i have done some crime after getting fail in 11 th . i have everything great but of no use as i am not damn intelligent or i am neither good in any of the field except the field of flirting that too i have stopped as my g.f came in my life . for today i have no great schedule i will sleep i will eat and after that i will Rome like a dog . i will go art of living today as i am feeling like to go it will be my fifth class there . my g.f and i meet once or twice in a week or month and that meeting takes place in my bed . oops i didn't tell you my name this is Abhilash Agrawal .......

Me Mr Lonely Searching for happiness ... :/