Yesterday finally got Rishabh's friendship back after his several apologies mistake was mine but his sorry did help me . Now everything is on ground Akshu is again with me being my sweetest friend , shreya is still my g.f . Feeling better but not completely satisfied something is still missing that is enjoyment I feel or may be something else I too don't know . I feel I am mad , mad for love , mad as I wanna laugh aloud , mad as I wanna hug someone tightly and never wanna leave her , mad as I wanna cry on someone's lap , many reasons I have to declare my self as a mad .

I am really tired with this boring schedule i wanna feel something new and awesome how is it possible I too don't know . I wanna be excite to a level , i wanna cry to my saddest , I wanna laugh till the last breath . I think this may be possible in dreams only not in real world , in real world nothing is possible I feel sometimes .

I am living with the satisfaction that I am hiding nothing from my self and trying to do my work to a small extent in many fields except studies , yak I hate studies Exception excluding chemistry as I love it , The way that madam teaches wow everything goes deep inside my brain . Hope I'l be able to maintain some score this year ...