Days are never busy as I do nothing

The thing i do Is think of you

Why i don't get other work as i need to do something

I never forget to remind you that i miss you

My life is nothing as i do nothing

Getting scolded has became my usual habit

Why i don't work hard for anything

I am just pissed off as i don't have any credit

My mind is fucked up so as my life

I know I write bullshit every time

But what do i have nothing great to do in this life

I too want to be happy as i am not criminal and hence done no crime

This time i want to achieve something

So I will Do best of mine to studies and life

I need to fuck all mouthes who thought that i am nothing

Now A days i am in love with studies and applying chemistry in my life

Today I am describing my day in the form of poetry

hope you would have understand logics

The only thing I enjoyed today was biking and other half was solitary

This time nothing can break my tricks and logics

Her birthday was today hope she would have enjoyed

I was not invited on her birthday neither she forced me to come

I didn't felt bad as I too would have refused if she invited

we didn't spent much time together today as i was in hurry to go home

Today I loved all the thinks madam taught me in class

i was fucking getting everything what she taught

I missed her smile in tuition thats why i felt like an ass

We didn't talked much today and i missed the fought

Going for study now as me feeling sleepy

Today i will start new lesson of physics

The mood is of little as didn't saw her reply

Hope she is not excusing for replies .....

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Instability of mind has causing damage to me . I am unable to see things properly and work accurately . Made one new friend "Anushri" she is sweet , she was saying that she had recent break up . So poor of her few months ago as I didn't liked her but from few days chatting with her for long hours I realized that she is beautiful soul . she calls me sweet heart why is so I too don't know as we never met each other , We both have heard about each other but never met . She is on vacation to Ambikapur and will be coming till first of week of June. She is not boring , She talks less and logical . She asked me about relationship I told her that I am Engaged for life time . We decided to have a meet when she will come back she is interested and me too in meeting . Lets see what would be the result when she comes back from vacation .

Yesterday spent time with Shreya it was awesome as usual we spent loads of time. we went to one coffee shop near by my home had nothing more than one cold drink that we shared , that too was enough for me as we spent very less time with each other .

Today I have last chemistry class before vacation then madam is giving vacation to us . One girl stares at me and i too stare her like hell , thinking to talk to her today . This thing I am thinking from so many days but unable to talk to her will again try to talk to her . The name of that girl is "Sristy".....

Beauty lies no where it just lies in the heart of the people . I may see many and many girls who are very much beautiful but i can't love them as they do not know my feelings and can't understood me in their entire life . But she is different my P.s is different from all. I always love to adore her . The time spend with her is so precious . If any girl asks me that am I single I just say I have been booked for life time with my shreya ... hope today i meet her . I have nothing great to do today other than drawing and roaming . Today thinking to do nothing will confirm the vacation given by various tuition. And probably could go to watch movie too . Hope today I didn't get bored as I hate getting bored .

She is the sunshine of my life

The path is too difficult for my goal

She helps to make my mind sharp as she is knife

I only Need she for my whole life nothing royal

The day when I see her goes great

Her Smile is filled with grace everyday

I want only she no one else to decide my fate

When I didn't see her whole day my day goes grey

I want to make her feel good by my activity

Working hard for dreams which include her

But to get success you need creativity

The mistakes i do while working can be improved as they are minor

There are many who studies more than me

But I can create the difference as I have something inside

They may be stronger but i am not a bee

I will win the race by leaving every opponent aside

Its too hard to study . Fuck When I open my books i feel really sleepy as any drug is stuffed in it. Days are never going satisfying failure and dis comfort from many fields . Seeing other so serious about studies make me more tensed as I get to know that i lye no where in comparison to them . I always think to study but don't know why my thinking is not that enough and hence I am unable to study . Today will enjoy Sunday hoping Tomorrow or from Today night I will Start Studying . I have such great fucking big big dreams but i am unable to work hard or cunningly for that dream . I have no tension I feel sometimes as I never study . Only Place I study is in tuition but its not enough I too know. I will be needing to find the solution to my problem soon . As next month Schools will be Re-Opening .....

She Drives me Crazy

Yesterday was not usual it was awesome plus hectic . Awesome due to my beautiful g.f . I am thinking to call her P.s from now . So P.s came with me for a long drive I enjoyed to the extent and after coming from ride we had a date too . Now second part was filled with dust as I didn't took the food nor the break fast neither Lunch I was really hungry . I searched For my helmet for Long time Finally I got it It was the exact I was looking for It is Sports Helmet From Vega . In Second half I missed my tuition and bunked really but it was not intentional i Was late . As the day was coming to end a good thing happened to me was she again . She gave me a gift A key ring she bought same for both of us .So Cute of her I was feeling like to kiss her that time but i controlled as we were near her house . I didn't study that much but than too i gave a nice try yesterday . She was scolding that i never study and I was liking to get scolded by her . How cute she is when she gets angry too. I am in love with her Completely . She is my part now I love everything about her . I can write thousand pages about her what i feel for her that too will be count less as my feelings are so vast for her .

I really love to think about her all time . She Is mine only home work these vacation means whole these vacation I think about her only write about her only and what guess even i draw about her only ... She Is my favorite Hobby an I want to do this hobby for my entire life ...

I think about her all day all night

The thing I doing is Wrong Or right

I wake up every morning I see her

I am A mountain she is the bearer

I would never Mind if anyone hates me forever

But when she will hate me i would smile never

Her fragrance is more than flower i feel

For her smile there is nothing which i can't steal

Love to make faces in front of her

Because Love to see her smile is a liqueur

Playing with her hair is so enjoying

But when her hair get disturb she gets annoying

What What

why it is so difficult to hear that i have fucked one year of mine . I am unable to digest the truth.Today dad was saying that he feel ashame that after being in the place which is a education hub i wasted one year of mine . Anyone will say I am fool I will digest but when dad says anything it hurts really . Its not that I am not feeling guilt that i have fucked my year . I just wanna forget everything and want to start everything fresh . Yesterday i studied at night today too i Will be studying . Today i didn't get a shit in coaching everything was going so above me even if i would be double of my height i wouldn't be able to catch what that fucker was teaching . I will do chemistry today and will do little drawing too .

Coming to my favorite topic "she" it was fun with her she came home we did Loads of fun including sex . Today we decided that we will reduce or will restrict our meeting at my home . Today we some how escape from our house without any question . I am damn confident if we will do our meeting in my ho0me frequently someone will raise question against us and I don't want that . Tomorrow is birthday of Her . I would not be able to wake for long duration to wish her so i will wish her in Facebook in Advance only before 3 hour or something like that . I hope I will be the first to wish her ...

Days are so complicated i want it simple

Why i Feel sad always its typical

My heart never feels ease isn't that horrible

I feel like crying but i can't its critical

I wanna run fast and laugh aloud

The only the I want is little happiness

In the way to ease my pain i see only cloud

The only thing i wanna do is craziness

What I need to get satisfied

Will I be able to achieve my goal in future

My hear is just feeling Heavy as it is blasted

Mind never works for me as I am no Creature

The search of me is still on isn't that crazy

Hope One day I will stop lying with myself

The only thing I need Is Ease of pain but what to do I am lazy

Its difficult but not impossible everything will change by me itself

Genral Equation

Universal truth which can't be change :

She says she loves me more than "i love her" and i love her more than "any other creature"

she loves me more than " I " love her

"I" consist of " one people " that is me

And "any other creature" consist of "Many peoples"

I = 1 people

Any other creature = infinite peoples

therefore: " I love her more than any other creature " < " I love you more than You love me "

Means My ratio was more stronger is more stronger and will be more stronger .......

same is the case with she miss me more , she kiss me more , she care about us more ... ;)

feeling better better ....