The way things move they are just so fast

How could you take that so easily

Its never easy to take everything which comes

Life is the grand total of everything and its sums

Nothing in this world is so catchy until you see

In this world achieving is not the only work

Life is all about enjoyment and fun

Its never possible that you will get everything you have to run

Its is easy to cry but holding tears is difficult

Sometimes you laugh sometimes cry

Nothing last long nothing is forever

You have to take things in your manner and be clever

Nothing will change everything depends on you

How and where to find your happiness

This heart us yours and you can hold it

Your heart can fall so hold it tight because there is a pit

Love lies in everyones heart

it depends how u catch that love

There is no guarantee of everything true

Some times you get pain and you may get blue .... <3<3

Yesterday shreya disclosed a one more truth that she was physical with 2 more other guys and was in a relationship with some more guys but was not physical after listening that , I reacted normally only today I have given break up in silent way . Now eyes are opened that nothing like true love exist . Or I would better say in my life it does not exist and in my life nothing like love exist . Its just sex and lust all around in my life now bored with this really anshu is coming on 5 th June she is the only girl left now with whom i can make out or love something i have never met her it will be our first meeting . Now will come out from this shit and will try to study its really tough i know but i can take that because , I have future to make ahead the only person who never failed me is my dad now i can't fail him he is my true Love . Finally i got a true love he is my father and I am proud to say that I love my daddy like heaven he is my life . Now study time anshu and many girls are still waiting for me . But I don't truly love them and they too know . Study is now first priority i know this in my heart and I know I will be sticking to what i am saying now .

Nothing s real everything is so so unjust what to say sometimes heart get pains that how could this possible "shreya" the witch , I am an ass hole so i have no right to say her . She confessed that she was in relationship with an Guy Ali before she was mine till all relationship she hided saying that Ali was his brother , now she confessed . she had so many X's before me and she talks to many now too . Its like Loving her is eating shit . I told her in some higher language that we both are doing this relationship just for enjoyment nothing real . I don't wanna leave her don't know why may be I afraid to leave alone . Leave this today I have self realization that study would pay me more than this creepy stuff's like love and all this dirty stuff can give me pain only , my life is like a shit now a days but i am still trying to get dissolved in this shit.

What the sky want to say you , what the atmosphere wanna say you , what the surrounding wanna say you, is really difficult to hear but you can't here them all as your mind has capacity storage and so no place is left for the storage of other things . Its like I again patched up with shreya as i fear to leave alone its what i too don't know is it love or is it lust or I just need someone all around poking me . I too don't know today planning to go movie with her and her friends and their friends hope we get some privacy there . What is the basic logic of love its difficult to learn only thing I need is someone all around all time tolerating me . This may be the reason I can't leave shreya I think I love her sometimes but after watching her holy shit activity's I realize that I am not in true love neither she is , I am using her and she too is using me . Her cell number is so so much popular all over and she has so many male friends and I feel really bad that she distributes her number so nicely and talk with so many guys and says to me sincerely that she loves me . I am doing time pass and she too , Anshu is coming till 5 th of June will see her too what kind of girl is she and all that lots of plans pending with her , hoping to fulfill .

Today i have no great program then siting next to P.c and roaming will think of studies today too Its too difficult to think about studies .

Remember me when you are sad

Remember me when you need someone

I will listen to you as I am too not glad

I am too like M.r lonely with no one such close

I have no work great to do just nothing

Hope one day someone will touch my heart

Because I am too a creature and need something

My mind is filled with nothing more than dirt

Finally safe now was feeling that i had true love then after learning the definition of true love i realized that i was loyal to no one and no one was loyal with me . Yeah having the same feeling my emotions are still in fucked position and my heart is still broken .

Falling in love is not really easy

The one who knows the definition can only learn

Love is all about trust its about how it makes you feel

Its not that which happen in movie or in any reel

The path of getting satisfaction is really hard

All i want is to cry and hug someone from heart

I wanna do this things before going to hell

I wanna here no music I just wanna hear a romantic nice bell

I am aimless but not that shameless

I just wanna listen something logical

Which can ease my pain and make me feel better

i don't know what i am saying my heart is completely shatter

Feeling little energetic again in this new morning but then too little hardness i feel in my heart now too . I will forget it soon spending these remaining day as i have good habit of forgetting and ignoring . As the yesterdays end was coming I was forgetting that i was sad too . Nothing last long neither happiness nor sadness so i never react to this emotions , I should better say I have no emotion . Everything is so fast for me I too can't understand . Hoping today to be a nice and awesome day with no tension just happiness all around ... I don't like to be happy always but i would not mind happiness if it comes for little period to me ... :/

The world is so vast that nothing last longs

We feel some pain when we don't understand what to do

Suffocation never be with you forever

You can deal with your suffocation when you are clever

The heart feels so good when any one touches it

The touch is very very difficult to find

Its too tough to walk without emotion

You get distracted from your path as you have no motion

Today had really bad day i am literally tired i feel there is no one who could understand me and make me feel better . Today had an accident nothing happened to me but bikes mirror got fucked . I am just hating these things so much irritation and frustration is filled in me . I just wanna hug anyone and cry aloud and wanna say I am not feeling well please help and recover me from pain , I am hating these life please make me love this life . Today had a hard talk with anshu she have heart but i can't see she is not of my level means i am below her level , I want anyone to poke me all time and understand what i feel and would share my emotion . I am just not getting it , today was holiday in tuition so didn't met sristy . I just want some love that would come true from heart I just want that someone loves me because of my badness means bad point not because of good point . It would be funny to say that i have good points but then too . all my emotions are being fucked really harshly . i feel like doing nothing . Suffocation is resulting to irritation due to irritation I am disturbing many peoples they just don't wanna here my bullshit but then too i say blah blah blah . Today shared some thoughts with my friend rishabh and told him about some family problem also discussed the ideal qualification i need in my g.f felt really really better after sharing , so many secrets he knows of mine but he never leaks he tolerate my madness and he is more than a brother and friend to me how much i may fight with him , i will be having same emotion for him he is my buddy . I am really just not getting that what is happening all around what i am feeling why am i sad . i am thinking hardly to concentrate in study field because it is only useful field i feel .

Today i fucked my bike feeling little bad I am little sad and unable to share emotion and wanna get satisfaction . Satisfaction is a total of lust , enjoyment , sharing , laughing , crying, dancing , singing and many more ..

I am truly in a search of what i want really ... :/

Yeah back from cricket feeling energetic whoa . When you win with good rates you feel good indirectly i am saying that i won , yesterday had harsh chat with shreya told her that i am bastard so its a waste to depend on me or trust me was feeling good after telling the truth . Today have no great plans other then yawning blogging and roaming . Oh fuck today chemistry tuition is starting again you remember sristy she comes in this tuition only , we will stare each other again i don't have guts to ask her number if i will do something like that , i will loose her smile and she looks stunning when she smiles . Today again will take a risk of opening books as they contain nicotine hence i feel sleepy furrr furr . How good it is to sleep in someones lap and to see the sky and ask what is the distance of star from the place where we are siting .. Everywhere science plays an role but who cares fuck science . I believe in dreaming a great dreamer . Now I have great work to do some movies are pending I have to see ..

Its never easy to share your feelings

Because what you share is never a secret

Love is love and the pure one evolves no cunnings

your emotion for someone has value less than a cart

Acting and believing are both really different

The way many do you can understand

Heart is like house for no sale the persons come just for a rent

Love is not about sex its about the way how you share and understand

Having knowledge and using it both are different

My heart is fucked now no place for love

Now only thing i want is silence and satisfaction I meant

There is nothing ahead me i am in center nothing above

Sometimes its really tough to ask any girl for coffee . How to arrange the situation its really tough you are always conscious if that girl would think something wrong about me what will I do . I too belong to the criteria of the same guy who have stammer when they talk to a new girl on cell . My mind get washed thoughts go inside my stomach the only thing comes when i stammer is rubbish that is blah blah blah .... i think First we should determine that girl is of which kind will she not mind a date after knowing that guy is an complete ass or Will she get annoyed after the rubbish question and will break friendship too . I will just wait and will hope that any other girl would take first step and i will just say yes and will say " i was just waiting for your question " . I belong to the people who dreams a lot I am a day dreamer . I just think too too much sometimes it kills me and sometimes it not yesterday i was feeling like to die today feeling like to dance and sing any broken song with rubbish lyrics Today had little chat with one friend of mine akanksha she appreciated my blog in return With appreciation I got her number too was feeling good . She is nice girl who talks less i should say very less , she is the only girl with whom i had stammer problem today we both have similarity's guess what we both are humans belong to same spices ... :p

Today was the day with no great issue everything was normal as i have forgotten all emotions and i have forgotten how to react everything i do is unreal as i don't wanna give a shit to anything . I am very much happy with my accepting habit hope it will help me to forget everything and will help me to live in present with little satisfaction ...

I was having these picture from long time i was not knowing were to utilize , I thought to use it here . After seeing these picture my mind questions me many time that do girls to love to lust do they too get excite or only guys have these tendency its very tough . Lust is among the 7 important needs of humans so why don't we simply go to any hot looking girl and just could ask can we have sex and she would say yes as this is important need of human and girl could do the same with boys so simple is this . But why is this not happening , I know I am talking foolish but there would be many girls and guys who would be interested in lust they may create some community for them and make me leader ... :p

I know I know Lust comes after love and love is a important factor and we all need that along with lust , but lust is a secondary factor . Finding love is so difficult as we keep our emotion by ourself only . I am not too from other planet i love and lust both. hope we all get best love and then best lust soon...

For me now a days there is no thing exist like love everything is well and good with me , i am just loving to accept the things . Today i again joined the company which i called bad . I love them so much they are my buddies how could i leave them . It depends on you what you pick from anyone their goodness or there badness .

Hope everyone get to love and then lust

Because as we need everything lust too is must

There is no one who don't have emotion

It Depends on you how to learn their motion

Its really really tough to understand the feelings

Who understood the emotion is the king of kings

its you and only you who could do any deed

Love is not all that you always need

Accepting everything is an act which holy

You can't get happiness or sadness fully

Time never be the same it change by itself every time

You will too get everything as you have done no crime

Sadness never last longs sooner or later you forget everything and start reacting normal again , after yesterdays sadness I am recovered now hate sharing to the people whom i meet daily talk daily and they know me by face . That's why yesterday I just messaged my sorrow to one friend of mine whom i have never seen but she holds great importance to me her name is Anishka . We are friends from more than 6 months she knows everything about me but we have never met she says that we are just message friend and we can chat via cell only we can never meet . I too have agreed by her sayings her message came first to me i didn't messaged her .. But I like talking to her . Yesterday I just messaged what I was feeling to her . Her reply didn't came till I was awake in morning I saw her reply . she had messaged me on 11.45 pm till that time i had gone to sleep . When i got wake I felt everything was normal I was not sad . Its just a moment when You need someone to share but after words when you didn't get no one to share you don't get much affected means you could tackle and handle your own self by yourself . I now a days share nothing with shreya too as she had leak some sayings of mine in past . Now I really hate sharing to her , yesterday too I found anishka whom i have never saw more dependable than shreya . Now everything is normal in anger today i Broke my friends bat while playing cricket. I will try to stick to the rules which i had made . I am finding no interest in the girls around me , i never understand them neither they did anushri too is not of my kind I felt, will get something better in future hope or would be satisfied with anyone . Now dreams are be given first priority by my side as i have fucked my one holy year .....

nothing is hard and nothing is easy

The only thing to forget sorrow is being busy

You are the only one and everyone is harsh

Depending on anyone is like going inside a marsh

Its better to be devil because saint never get gold

I am working on my self so i could get more bold

No one can ease our pain its so disgusting

How hards we think the more is easy is forgetting

Its so difficult every time to be happy . You never know when your day will become miserable and your happiness would be washed in a seconds . In this world you yourself is you best friend no one else could ease and understand your pain better . I am just trying to become an hard soul who didn't get affected by anything today i had fucked up day means i didn't enjoyed ready . I didn't accepted the truth and the hurdles of life today , its good to be sad too sometimes it helps you to be with your self and hence results in self realization . Just want nothing crazy in my life everything is just coming by it self and I am doing nothing great more than accepting . Feeling little suffocated but will recover soon . You can't be happy with any person first you feel good for some time and after words you are unable to understand the person . Nothing like love exist everything is imaginary here nothing real so I too trying to enjoy this unreal world , Happy in my dreams with My dream peoples in my dreamland , nothing i wanna share now i am happy by my self ....

Finally again I lost in betting yesterday but what the fuck i didn't felt bad . I was happy till morning and happy now also . acceptance makes you feel happy the main reason why I am happy these days is acceptance i am not getting affected by anything just moving and moving . Yesterday I was success in being detached from the company todays work is to do little study too hope i succeed in this too. Today I got brothers request in Fb(Facebook) means I added a new family member to my family tree in Fb it was Zunaid Mohammad my good friend now bro, he too is the part of company he is a good guy so he does not get affected and i am an ass thats why i was getting affected by the company . I have a friend Reshu she so so sweet and cute she was saying that I didn't mentioned about her in my blog why is so , I didn't told her anything and promised her that i will surely mention about her on my blog today i have mentioned ... :p

Its too difficult to understand everything

The one who understand is educated

The one who not understand won't gain anything

The art of understanding is not that complicated

Understanding leads to acceptance and acceptance is good

Heart and mind both are free when we accept everything

Heart of our is so soft but we have to make it hard like a wood

You will not get happiness every time wait for something

Heart is same in all bodies so it would be easy to understand

Sometimes we get sad when nobody give us value

You are musician and this world is a band

Give the best every time because the world it self is venue

Today controlled my self and was ditched from the group was with my one and only good friend rishabh . Yesterday I was extremely in annoying mood so he didn't told me anything as he too knew i believe in self realization . Today morning he told me that i was not normal yesterday and need to be normal from now i too told him that ya i was like in bad mood yesterday so everything went wrong . except studies i did everything right , i didn't get that much free time that i would have studied .. :p .....

Realized today that Love never exist its just a word used in dreamland , nothing can satisfy your mind except you so it would be better option to love your own self than loving other i am believing in that ideology . Anger is my biggest problem have to use this anger in some right direction and try to control it to some extent i realized that too. Today was difficult but i enjoyed it to my level . Today betting on Bangalore Ipl Hope i win this time ...

Nothing is difficult

Feeling like an ass what to say .. :/ ....... i have been in wrong company ever since i came to bhilai . I am spoiling my name as well as my dads name whom i really really love from heart and respect him . He gave me so much but i am fucking his reputation by my shameful activity's from today i have made it in my mind that i will lock myself in home and will not go to the bad company its really tough to detach from them but i will need to do that . I will be left with lots of free time after leaving there company and in that time i may be able to study something . The thing i never thought to do in dreams I did after joining there company . I will have to spend lots and lots of time with me myself because i need some self realization as i have fucked my life so harshly . People except your family can't understand you in their entire life i realized . Dad gave me so much since i am born but i didn't value it . I am giving importance to the people who did nothing good to my favor except spoiling me and my entire carrier . I valued to the people who never want me to shine in future . Everyone is walking ahead and i am still standing in my place i think this deed of mine would never help me in future . I did lots of mistakes now need to correct them , studying is difficult act for me but i will not die after giving a try . Hope today I follow what i said and be completely detached from the wrong company and when i feel i have nothing to do i will study sincerely , little effort of mine will benefit no one , will not give satisfaction and great future to no one , the only one will get everything by my effort is me and only me .

Just coming from ground after playing cricket . I love this game really sometimes I like loosing too in this game i play fine cricket but my friend rishabh plays this game in another level . yesterday i had well slept today had an energetic morning . Got those slaps which i deserved really , got that fun in evening which i deserved really , got that place where i can take my g.f's for spending some time including my permanent g.f shreya . Anshu is a bitch and ass she want time pass and i too . For that girl I was trying to cheat my precious one but for cheating I got reward too and I was feeling really good . It was great feeling that i got what I deserved really . When I was angry I was unable to see things but after opening eye I realized that what was real and what was not . When I am depressed to the level I talk to reshu she is my good friend don't worry guys she is committed and hence i can't make her my g.f . yesterday I was talking to her in front of shriti . hope the parch up we did after one day break up Last forever and I be loyal to her . Told her frankly that I will be making many g.f but will marry you only and also told that she is free to do anything she feels like doing .

I do what I too don't know

What to with my fucking life

Its too difficult to understand and know

I am just trying to cut my heart with help of knife

I am feeling so much uneasy

Everything I do I can never Undo

Why I too can't take thing easy and be busy

I don't know what is happening and what to do

I dream sometimes that everything is easy

but when I wake up they are just a dream

Its too hard to see everything as they are when you crazy

Need to wash up my eyes because dream is just a dream

Feeling so better after getting slapped ...... :/ ....... Shreya came to me what I was thinking what happened . I surely deserved the treatment and I got . Its not enough for what I did to her . I surely needed a treatment I got that yeah feeling so nice na what to say . Got punishment for all my bad deeds . Till the day I was born no one touched me except my mother . Today something new happened .. little sad little happy ..

One surprising news I have after that slap We had patch up . Now don't know what I did but I think it was right Because she was the first when I had nothing she was my first g.f and is I can say from my side ...

today I gone to railway track with friends it was so silent place best place for couples little risk of police but great empty place todays best part was the fun in that place how close i was from running train I can't say ..

Thinking My mind and heart is been fucked so harshly ... Tomorrow will be new morning everything will be new hope I will recover soon ... Feeling very bad little sad but what to do can't die hate to not cherish this beautiful life will go to that place again with any special person again I am in love with that Lovely place So silent and calm

atmosphere ..

Hope today I will sleep tight ..

Me Mr Devil

Today had finally break up with shreya feeling little bad but made new g.f guess who she is anushri(anshu) she accepted my proposal . Reason for break up I too don't know technically . After break up I was free and was trying to understand what i was feeling its good for me . I will be able to study little . anushri is of my age so she might understand me properly . One thing i realize during all process that i am an ass .....

Its tough to say that I am an ass

There was nothing in her which can ease my pain

Truth is truth I am an ass

I know that the thing I did will hit me back indirectly in vain

I feel Anshu will understand me better don't know why

I am serious about nothing more only serious about career

I know I am bad and made many girls cry

But I told everyone that I am crazy and mad oh my dear

I am knowing nothing about me but feeling free

God may forgive me for my sin

I got nothing that would have felt me feel nice

I am completely Unsatisfied man who could never win

There is nothing which could affect me I am a devil

My soul Is got fucked up now the thing left is only and only me

I wanna run hard laugh loud And one day I will

Now only Person with whom I can talk is anshu and the great me

Today proposed anushri now writing poem to impress her :

The day when i talked to her freely i felt special

I know I love her but don't know what she thinks about my potential

I just proposed her recently

She may think that I may take things lightly

I want her to be mine forever

She may think I am not clever

I love her really madly

She may think I am treating her badly

Hope She too have the same feeling

Or else I will go Creeping

I don't know what she thinks about me

I can do anything for her even i can bend towards her on my knee

I want Her I want her is my only pray

I just don't wanna spend my life without her even a day

When she will say yes to me i will be lucky

Don't what she thinks about me am I Creepy

What an ass

Fuck I am going crazy Just now I indirectly proposed Anushri Now what the fuck is wrong with me I think I have lost all my presence of mind . Had a long conversation with This Girl Anushri she is driving me crazy . The way she laughs is so nice I even can't define in my little words . Today Shreya's Mom saw me she was saying I don't know but and I don't want to know either . I just Wanna study hard and Wanna do lots of masti . Shreya is nice but I am just pissed off because of her . The way she makes me tensed is fucked my mind so hard even I can't think either . I know I am being an ass but what to do the only thing I know is that I will never Leave Shreya and I will like other girls like Anushri too . Shreya Is for Life time and other are just what to say source of enjoyment for me and for them too . Before making any other girl rather than Shreya as g.f I say every girl that they are time pass and I can't leave Shreya . It proves that I like many girls but I love only one Girl that Is Shreya .....

Everything I make is just a mess

But What I can do I am An ass

I know my Fault then too i don't correct them

I have just fucked my life with a dirty stem

I am an dirty fellow with a dirty mind

How could I accept good to me as I too no kind

I does not honor my life just have made it shit

I am just a flopper How could I accept an hit

I hate my self very much what is the reason

When I will realize things is there any season

Nothing i feel is easy for me as I feel I am bad

The deeds I do are the main reason why I am sad

Yesterday was nice don't know why . everything was not perfect but then too I was enjoying accepting it . Again I lost in betting yesterday it was getting usual for me . Due to bad weather i didn't go to tuition and hence didn't took the number of sristy . Made a awesome new friend Anushri see never lets me feel bore . She is sort of interesting . Yesterday we were talking on nice topic that girls to get excite or only boys have it in them . She answered so logically I was stunned that any girl too could think so much high . She was really funny and interesting . Not met Shreya yesterday I think we will meet less now as her grand mother came to her house . Today I have no plans rather than sleeping , roaming and watching movies . Will think to do something unique in noon when i will have no work means completely free . I am bored of everything now so will try new new things from now will try to do some unique drawing from today . Vacations has been given from all coaching center so there is no coaching from today till vacation ends . So I have full time to waste as I don't know how to utilize the time I will waste it either . Finding everything difficult these days unable to concentrate in anything . My ANYTHING only includes only and only STUDIES . I am unable to keep myself happy Don't know why is it show which thing is being sticked in my ass and stooping me to get satisfaction . I have fucked my life nothing can ease my pain here so will try to be in my self from now . Self realization and self satisfaction is more important virtue in this world .

Days are never busy as I do nothing

The thing i do Is think of you

Why i don't get other work as i need to do something

I never forget to remind you that i miss you

My life is nothing as i do nothing

Getting scolded has became my usual habit

Why i don't work hard for anything

I am just pissed off as i don't have any credit

My mind is fucked up so as my life

I know I write bullshit every time

But what do i have nothing great to do in this life

I too want to be happy as i am not criminal and hence done no crime

This time i want to achieve something

So I will Do best of mine to studies and life

I need to fuck all mouthes who thought that i am nothing

Now A days i am in love with studies and applying chemistry in my life

Today I am describing my day in the form of poetry

hope you would have understand logics

The only thing I enjoyed today was biking and other half was solitary

This time nothing can break my tricks and logics

Her birthday was today hope she would have enjoyed

I was not invited on her birthday neither she forced me to come

I didn't felt bad as I too would have refused if she invited

we didn't spent much time together today as i was in hurry to go home

Today I loved all the thinks madam taught me in class

i was fucking getting everything what she taught

I missed her smile in tuition thats why i felt like an ass

We didn't talked much today and i missed the fought

Going for study now as me feeling sleepy

Today i will start new lesson of physics

The mood is of little as didn't saw her reply

Hope she is not excusing for replies .....

Text missing ...........

Instability of mind has causing damage to me . I am unable to see things properly and work accurately . Made one new friend "Anushri" she is sweet , she was saying that she had recent break up . So poor of her few months ago as I didn't liked her but from few days chatting with her for long hours I realized that she is beautiful soul . she calls me sweet heart why is so I too don't know as we never met each other , We both have heard about each other but never met . She is on vacation to Ambikapur and will be coming till first of week of June. She is not boring , She talks less and logical . She asked me about relationship I told her that I am Engaged for life time . We decided to have a meet when she will come back she is interested and me too in meeting . Lets see what would be the result when she comes back from vacation .

Yesterday spent time with Shreya it was awesome as usual we spent loads of time. we went to one coffee shop near by my home had nothing more than one cold drink that we shared , that too was enough for me as we spent very less time with each other .

Today I have last chemistry class before vacation then madam is giving vacation to us . One girl stares at me and i too stare her like hell , thinking to talk to her today . This thing I am thinking from so many days but unable to talk to her will again try to talk to her . The name of that girl is "Sristy".....

Beauty lies no where it just lies in the heart of the people . I may see many and many girls who are very much beautiful but i can't love them as they do not know my feelings and can't understood me in their entire life . But she is different my P.s is different from all. I always love to adore her . The time spend with her is so precious . If any girl asks me that am I single I just say I have been booked for life time with my shreya ... hope today i meet her . I have nothing great to do today other than drawing and roaming . Today thinking to do nothing will confirm the vacation given by various tuition. And probably could go to watch movie too . Hope today I didn't get bored as I hate getting bored .

She is the sunshine of my life

The path is too difficult for my goal

She helps to make my mind sharp as she is knife

I only Need she for my whole life nothing royal

The day when I see her goes great

Her Smile is filled with grace everyday

I want only she no one else to decide my fate

When I didn't see her whole day my day goes grey

I want to make her feel good by my activity

Working hard for dreams which include her

But to get success you need creativity

The mistakes i do while working can be improved as they are minor

There are many who studies more than me

But I can create the difference as I have something inside

They may be stronger but i am not a bee

I will win the race by leaving every opponent aside

Its too hard to study . Fuck When I open my books i feel really sleepy as any drug is stuffed in it. Days are never going satisfying failure and dis comfort from many fields . Seeing other so serious about studies make me more tensed as I get to know that i lye no where in comparison to them . I always think to study but don't know why my thinking is not that enough and hence I am unable to study . Today will enjoy Sunday hoping Tomorrow or from Today night I will Start Studying . I have such great fucking big big dreams but i am unable to work hard or cunningly for that dream . I have no tension I feel sometimes as I never study . Only Place I study is in tuition but its not enough I too know. I will be needing to find the solution to my problem soon . As next month Schools will be Re-Opening .....

She Drives me Crazy

Yesterday was not usual it was awesome plus hectic . Awesome due to my beautiful g.f . I am thinking to call her P.s from now . So P.s came with me for a long drive I enjoyed to the extent and after coming from ride we had a date too . Now second part was filled with dust as I didn't took the food nor the break fast neither Lunch I was really hungry . I searched For my helmet for Long time Finally I got it It was the exact I was looking for It is Sports Helmet From Vega . In Second half I missed my tuition and bunked really but it was not intentional i Was late . As the day was coming to end a good thing happened to me was she again . She gave me a gift A key ring she bought same for both of us .So Cute of her I was feeling like to kiss her that time but i controlled as we were near her house . I didn't study that much but than too i gave a nice try yesterday . She was scolding that i never study and I was liking to get scolded by her . How cute she is when she gets angry too. I am in love with her Completely . She is my part now I love everything about her . I can write thousand pages about her what i feel for her that too will be count less as my feelings are so vast for her .

I really love to think about her all time . She Is mine only home work these vacation means whole these vacation I think about her only write about her only and what guess even i draw about her only ... She Is my favorite Hobby an I want to do this hobby for my entire life ...

I think about her all day all night

The thing I doing is Wrong Or right

I wake up every morning I see her

I am A mountain she is the bearer

I would never Mind if anyone hates me forever

But when she will hate me i would smile never

Her fragrance is more than flower i feel

For her smile there is nothing which i can't steal

Love to make faces in front of her

Because Love to see her smile is a liqueur

Playing with her hair is so enjoying

But when her hair get disturb she gets annoying

What What

why it is so difficult to hear that i have fucked one year of mine . I am unable to digest the truth.Today dad was saying that he feel ashame that after being in the place which is a education hub i wasted one year of mine . Anyone will say I am fool I will digest but when dad says anything it hurts really . Its not that I am not feeling guilt that i have fucked my year . I just wanna forget everything and want to start everything fresh . Yesterday i studied at night today too i Will be studying . Today i didn't get a shit in coaching everything was going so above me even if i would be double of my height i wouldn't be able to catch what that fucker was teaching . I will do chemistry today and will do little drawing too .

Coming to my favorite topic "she" it was fun with her she came home we did Loads of fun including sex . Today we decided that we will reduce or will restrict our meeting at my home . Today we some how escape from our house without any question . I am damn confident if we will do our meeting in my ho0me frequently someone will raise question against us and I don't want that . Tomorrow is birthday of Her . I would not be able to wake for long duration to wish her so i will wish her in Facebook in Advance only before 3 hour or something like that . I hope I will be the first to wish her ...

Days are so complicated i want it simple

Why i Feel sad always its typical

My heart never feels ease isn't that horrible

I feel like crying but i can't its critical

I wanna run fast and laugh aloud

The only the I want is little happiness

In the way to ease my pain i see only cloud

The only thing i wanna do is craziness

What I need to get satisfied

Will I be able to achieve my goal in future

My hear is just feeling Heavy as it is blasted

Mind never works for me as I am no Creature

The search of me is still on isn't that crazy

Hope One day I will stop lying with myself

The only thing I need Is Ease of pain but what to do I am lazy

Its difficult but not impossible everything will change by me itself

Genral Equation

Universal truth which can't be change :

She says she loves me more than "i love her" and i love her more than "any other creature"

she loves me more than " I " love her

"I" consist of " one people " that is me

And "any other creature" consist of "Many peoples"

I = 1 people

Any other creature = infinite peoples

therefore: " I love her more than any other creature " < " I love you more than You love me "

Means My ratio was more stronger is more stronger and will be more stronger .......

same is the case with she miss me more , she kiss me more , she care about us more ... ;)

feeling better better ....